Everything is Everything
Fay Weldon said, “Nothing happens, and nothing happens, and then everything happens”, which is where we are today, the first day of June, 2010. It’s all happening. One week from today my best friend, maid of honor, and traveling companion is coming for a girl getaway to the Caribbean. We’re going to Isla Mujeres, Playa del Carmen and beyond. When we were young we took roadtrips every summer down the east coast to the beaches of North Carolina, Virginia, Maryland and Delaware. We would camp, we would laugh, and we would spend every day on the beach, reading, swimming and talking about life, the universe, etc. Those were innocent and delightful times. Just after I left for Mexico, she and her bfriend went to New Zealand to travel, work and hang out for a while in another hemisphere. Then they toured Asia like badasses and went back to the US about a year ago. We spent two days in New York together last August, but we haven’t been able to do a long week like this in ages. It will be so amazing to see her and debrief about all that has happened and all that is about to occur.
Because it’s going to get hectic. A little more than a week after I get back from Playa, we’re taking the bus one last time to the Cancun airport to fly to Tallahassee. It’s crazy. This is the longest I’ve ever lived anywhere since I left my parents house for college at age 17. This was the first home we ever really made together. It’s going to be difficult to pack it up and go, even though it is absolutely the right time to do so. We arrived here four years ago with nothing. A few articles of clothing, laptops, sunblock, and stars in our eyes. Looking back on arrival posts I love our energetic voices and sweet insights. We were puppies. Adorable! And though sometimes it feels like Mexico has hardened us, I know that a change of scenery will bring us renewed energy and better perspective on all this. We loved this life often and fiercely. And we will love our new life too, I hope. We’ve gained so much, not least of all complete trust in each other, which I have written about before, but can’t praise enough. Even though we’re going home and it’s exciting and familiar, I am sure certain aspects will be daunting. Change is hard. But having a partner to get me through anything means everything.
I hope America is ready for us. Because we’re coming back bigger and better than before, like the Cloverfield monster. (spoilers!)
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Comment by Mom on 2 June 2010:
OK, I’m crying again, dammit, Jilly!
Comment by Nan Logan on 5 June 2010:
We will miss you. Come visit often